Is is too much to ask for a home that is safe and secure?I would love to be able to walk into a room without first turning on the light and searching every corner and all the walls and ceiling for signs of
giant roaches (about 3 inches long)...
Is it too much to ask for updated appliances?I would love to have a stove that has coils that actually lie
flat instead of trying to precariously perch a pot of boiling water or a pan of hot oil on coils that are
lopsided...
Is is too much to ask for apartment updates equal to that of my neighbors?I would love new
tile in the kitchen and bathrooms and (as mentioned above) a
stove that is more recent and updated like I
jealously found last night in my friends' apartment...
I don't want to live the next year or two in a home that I hate. This complex is 30 years old and they only do updates "as needed." I think that mine needs it. We are at a lower elevation than some of the other apartments and so we get all of the "water bugs" (aka
giant roaches) that come up the drains after it rains. The managers sent an exterminator in here yesterday to spray and we bought roach traps, but there has to be a better way to prevent them from coming up the drains at all. Plus, there shouldn't be any holes by the dishwasher that allow them to get into my kitchen! My friends have nice stoves and mine is ancient. The coils won't lie flat and it doesn't even have a clock on it! And the tile is incredibly old and (I never thought I'd say this) I'd rather have new vinyl floors like my friends. All these things (and others) caused the flood gates to open and the tears to flow for a long time as I drifted off to sleep last night.
Are my expectations too high? Ben says that I have just been very blessed to live in nice places my whole life.
Am I wrong for being envious of my friends next door? Is it considered coveting? Ben has a plan to try to fix all of these problems for me. He's killed a few roaches already and always reminds me of how blessed we are and how things really could be worse. I know I wouldn't be able to do this if I didn't have him. Despite my current state of misery, I am so grateful for a husband who understands my distress and is willing to get me a tissue and just hold me while I cry.
Thank you, Ben. You are more than I could have ever asked for.